Sunday, June 24, 2007

more more more......

hahaha this one is sth just appeal to me while watching initial D...........do not have a heart to challenge people, the only person u have to beat is urself..........maybe this is sth u heard from a racing show. but i think this apply to everyone in all wok of life. Just like when i am in architecture, if u work hard just to win ppl in ur cohort, maybe it will take u high up, but will nvr reach the peak, cos if u win u will find it bored cos there will be no challenge, and if u lose, u will lose ur confidence and passion which will mess up ur concentration. just like racing. however, if u r always challenging urself, u will have calm mind and always looking at ur pros and cons and become better, even sometimes u will not know it.

True or not i dun know.....but i think it is a better way to study.........hmmmm.........

more......

Choice of life is like choosing between taking a bus during peak hr or walk to the destination. Taking bus is easy, all u do is sit in the bus and wait for the bus to reach ur destination, but its slow bcos its peak hr and u are trap in a jam. Walking on the other hand is tiring and hot, yet u will reach ur destination faster. It is just like when we pick our choice in life, easy way out or the hard way. the fast way or the slow way...............hmmmm.........

Some thing i thought.....

Life is like a jigsaw puzzle with no display pic. U will nvr know wat each pieces represent. Only time n patience will tell.

haha always thought or heard some useful things. maybe i will just post so i can read it in future and maybe help some ppl who read my blog. some 5 cents worth thinking of stuff......

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Hmmmm.......

this is something lihying, my jc friend (opps! hehe) gave........http://www.astrology.com.au/compatibility/compatibility.asp.......go try it......see if its accurate for u...... this is wat i get when i tried.......

Cancer + Aquarius

Water + Air = Rain



The freedom-loving and independent Aquarian is not in the same kettle of fish as you. You could find this a difficult match to handle. It’s hard to tie down a wilful Aquarian to a stable routine. Even your best emotional reasoning won’t budge an Aquarian.

The Aquarian needs to explore all of the highways and byways of life before making a firm commitment to someone, and if you’re the more conservative and traditional type of Cancerian, you could be waiting an awfully long time till this exploration is over and your needs take centre stage.

This combination brings into play the lunar vibrations of Cancer and the Uranian element of Aquarius — together, these produce a very electric and often high-strung combination.

Aquarius will leave you up in the air about where you stand, particularly in relation to the emotional status quo. And can you tie them down? Absolutely not! Still, if you’re prepared to venture forth and explore life with an Aquarian, you may have lots of exhilarating adventures.

If the Aquarian can settle down just enough to let your lunar vibrations soothe their soul, you may be able to pull the two of you closer together. But there will be continuing difficulty: you need deep and abiding family relationships, and the Aquarian needs freedom.

A passionate, if not spasmodic, sexual relationship between the two of you is likely. The Aquarian’s ‘hippie’ approach to sex is a little too way out for you, and may not fulfil you, but at least you will have a few fireworks!

Those born between 21 January and 30 January will bring you trouble. The excitement you feel at the start could eventually turn into exhaustion and exasperation. There’s nothing settled about them. They seek out extreme excitement — they like to be daredevils — and unpredictability is their middle name; this is not usually your cup of tea.

The hectic schedule of Aquarians born between 31 January and 8 February may overpower you. These people are constantly on the go, and often their work involves lots of travel. If you enjoy travelling, you can salvage this relationship by joining in the adventure of overseas trips with them. In the extreme, they may relocate. You might have to choose between living in a place you know well, and uprooting yourself to go somewhere completely different.

You’ll identify with — and fall in love with — those born between 9 February and 18 February. You’ll have great friendships with these people; their zaniness is attractive, in a weird and wonderful way — they’re just different enough. They are also far more likely than other Aquarians to have relatively settled lifestyles. This gives you the best of both worlds – excitement and a bit of stability.

hopeful for me?? i dun know...........like i said.....just a journal to keep track of my dumb life.......just tt i feel i have nothing to hide.......i am not a person who is good at expressing myself........i can be damn mean on the outside by when u need help, i will help u with all my might.......i can laugh but my laughter does not mean anything.......i can laugh at anything.....even msn and here......u will see alot of 'hahahaha'......i type till become habit le.......well.....just to numb myself as usual.......hahaha my heart too much injury le.....'holely' (holy) heart!!!......dun play play.......hahahaha

More Confession.....

hi everyone......still the busy me...... dun know if u call this a update but think i have to clarify things after some chat with rayson......hahaha........first thing......i dun know if i am being too sensitive or too insensitive but this blog is like a journal so i am just putting sth which i want it for myself to see in future to laugh at my old self......hahha.....also to vent all the things which i have kept in my heart and killing me......right now i am teaching 4 kids, so mon, tue, wed, thurs evening and sat morning is tuition, then i am helping mr fong, my archi yr1 sem2 tutor in his office, so morning 9am to 6pm mon-fri gone as well, then i am doing istana pavilion project, KR or Kent Ridge Hall rag, so the remaining time of the weekdays is gone, and have to work till ard 2am everyday to settle some stuff be4 sleep, weekends.....hahaha i making my own studio table, actually somehow done, just need finishing, and a big cabinet to put my comics and books and models, which is just started, so weekend gone, hahahaha.......so only sometime can squeeze a bit of time to go out or sth.......busy? crazy?......i dun think so.......i like the way it is........yes u might say i am running away from reality bcos u read my last few post......well.......tt is only sometime.......if u like someone......this is normal right?.......but i am happy with the current situation where i can still tok to her and discuss normal things, maybe being friends for the time being is good ba......maybe tt will stay till forever, i dun know......but of course i will hope to have things go better, but then this kind of things is not force one right??......if she think i am the one for her, then it is her choice and of course i will be happy like heaven, but if not, then it ok lar.......i already letting fate to do the job le, i expressed my feeling, i will still continue to give my best care and everything to her, its her choice now, all i can do now is wait........maybe my best job is wait ba, maybe not, i dun know. Already waited stupidly for someone for 7yrs, now i only waited for a yr only. If she end up with someone else, i give her my blessing as long as she is happy. Say i am silly, i agree. Want me to change my heart, its very difficult, tt is y i can understand her when she told me she had someone in mind. well.........enough said..............say somemore i will go emo again.........work work work!!!!!!!!!...........right now my laughter is only to cover the sad and sorrow inside me.....when can i really laugh with real happiness from the bottom of my heart?.......we shall see........

Sunday, June 10, 2007

My Confession......

OK......those who read my last blog.......the gals name is a person whose name is engraved in my heart due to some reason.......its not the gal i am going after now........right now i am going after a gal in archi......yes yes......i might as well confess it......since many of u knows it.......she is a simple gal who give me strength........her voice, smile, action all inspire me........someone who i am will to give my life to.....who is tt......some of u know....others go find out urself........i just doing wat i have to do, although i know its not enough, but i cant see any sign she is giving to allow me to go forward.......maybe to her i am just a good friend ba.........u all tell me lar......go forward? go backward? stop moving?........haizzzzzzzzz.........soooooo compliacted................when i dun have one, i desperate to get one............now i find one, yet i cant have it, and ponder to grab or let go...........i wonder wat would happen if i got one............or would i even find the one....???..........the future is sooooooooooooo dim............i dun wanna go think abt it............hahaha ok think i go back to my work..........work is now the only things which is like a numb injection.........to numb myself from the pain, sad and sorrow............workaholic now.........dun know how long i can take it........let just take a step at a time.........

Monday, June 04, 2007

First day at work.....

hahaha my first real job.......and in my tutor's firm......HCFA......whahahaha..........Mr Fong's firm......nice small cosy little place.....and i have my own desk!!! on my......and first day i learn how to use computer to do archi works......then Mr Fong told us his super interesting history again. HANDS, EYES AND MIND....... must work together. WE ARE CREATING ARTS FOR PPL TO LIVE IN!!!! DUN FORGET TT.....haha.....so many things.........looking forward to be in his firm......well.....bcos now is real stuff so stress is still there....must learn fast in order to do more work......hahaha......but i didnt sleep well the previous night so i actually fall asleep.....whahahah.....lucky he didnt see it.....maybe he did but didnt say anything.....then i know this gal who is working there and she is going to be NUS archi too!!! and bcos she is from poly so she is join my yr......hahahah......haven become student we become collegue first.....hahaha.....wat a coincidence.....and further coincidence......her name is Tan Li Hua......OMG!!!!!!!!! haiz......y? hahahahaha.......tt is for me to know and for u ppl to find out........tt is all for today......hmmm......let see.......no mean stuff today.....haizzz.......stay tune.....will try to get some.....wahahahaha

Sunday, June 03, 2007

on 2nd thought....might as well i put it up for u ppl to enjoy.....hahahaha here it is....



haha....sorry ar..... have to listen finish the background music be4 u can listen to this. but still....enjoy!!!

Super Duper weird dream.....

Today woke up in a total daze!!! Cos i just had a dream which i had always wanted......i met my first love and she told me she want to be together with me. hahahaha crazy dream.....this is the first time i got SHOCKED OUT of my dream.....hahaha.....wanted the dream to continue but just cant.....maybe this is to show tt i am a person who cant be too happy or excited abt anything.....or even dream will just go off.....hahaha......since i have dreamed it.....this show tt in reality.....it wont happen anymore.......sooooo.......shall just forget it and live on.......now is just sad sad sad and sorrow sorrow.........go listen to the song 'sad and sorrow' in the anime naruto.......go search in youtube.....listen and tt is how and i feeling now all the way..........

Friday, June 01, 2007

Istana Event....

hey.....ppl who look at my blog. no need to be archi student.....anyone is welcome.....just go take a look at the blog we created for the pavilion. the progress and ideas.....give comment if possible.....so we can improve.....

http://istanapavilion.blogspot.com/

last min today they told us they want to push forward the date of 'submission'. wohooooo.....more stress.....ok back to work.....just sit back enjoy and give comment if possible.....

the fun of tuition and some erhem......

well......today just had another new tuition kid. Her name is Jeanie. only sec 1 and she know tons of stuff......other than sch stuff. she knew army stuff, uni stuff, all kind. how she knew them?? she only told me she got friends from poly, friends going army..... how she know them?? i also want to know..... hahahah kids nowadays really is shocking. wat can i say......just awed by her. but the most impt things is teaching these kids really is fun. they bring me joy and bring me away from reality. i was having a really really bad week and during the tuition session, everything pain and sad stuff just disappear. all i know is just the world between the kid and me. knowing how she is doing and trying to teach her wat i know. it is 1.5hrs and i just drag till ard 2hrs. i dun care if i get less money. the fun, the smile of the kid, the challenge of teaching, it is all worthwhile. it is only when i enter the bus home reality hit back hard at me....... all the thing in reality......so sian......haiz.......love, work, home.......totally sianzz......i am only a student and already like this, i wonder how i will be when i walk into the society. maybe i shd continue teaching once in a while. i think when sch start, no matter how stress i am, i will continue teaching, these kids really bring joy to me. and maybe they are the one who will bring my stress away.



ok back to some reality and mean stuff......must have some everytime isnt it?? if not where is the fun?? hahahaha.....this time......SHAZI!!!!! U WANT SOME UPDATE RIGHT??? HERE ARE SOME!!!! whahahahahahahahahahahahaha..........he think he show me no harm........hahaha......i shall help u spread so u might have a chance......whahahahaha.........they (shazi, liang ping, wen hui) are working to do some research in sch and they come ji siao me on the net.......wha liao.....the one who shd be working is making fun of me who is doing nothing???....i shall show the power of someone who is doing nothing......hahahah........okok.....i shall admit i also like someone in archi n i think many of u knows.....might as well admit it be4 they try to do sth funny right???......aiya.....but i think i am doing things too obvious le.....but if u like someone, might as well let them know than doing nothing right?? SHAZI......GO DO STH OR WE WILL!!!! whahahahahahahahaha......ok enough of mean stuff...... mine might not succeed, and i shall not emo anymore. i actually looking for some comfort and someone to share my happiness and pain but yet i always fail to find, i already given up hope le......think i will nvr find one anyway.....might as well.....haizz......think i find more happiness with my tuition kids........others only give me pain and stress......i already pain for 7+++yrs le......finally though maybe my turn will come and more pain hits in.....haiz.....think i really did something horrible in my last life. suan le.....shall be who i am and just live my life........the pain will be there forever, but i happy now tt i find some really interesting kids to teach to bring me some colours in life. be4 tt is really really depressing.....some of my friend will know......well.....i think tt is enough.......i said i will not emo but i bet i still will once in a while but i tt is normal ba..........just to relieve some pain gathered in me.

ok tt is all for this time.......interesting???? hahaha u all want to know my situation with her//???? no hope lar........nothing to say much......maybe tt feeling come back so sth to drive me to write down everything, then i will.....till then......just enjoy my mean-ness and stay tune!!!!