Concerned friend...........

haha..........well........my friend read my blog and wrote a super long mail to me...........TOUCHED........but haha.......well.........i knew all these in a way or 2...........this is not my first time anyway...........but this time is really the most deep one..........but then suan le.............just wanna put the mail here for memories ba.........

hey sky, i juz read your blog again. sorry about it,if u tell me to stop
reading i will. but i'm just concerned, since you seem okay in school and it
turns out you are facing so much. well..do take care of yourself, even if
doing so means taking time off helping her and maybe neglecting your own
work a bit. because only if you take care of yourself then u can take care
your own work and of others well. face it, it's a fact. why force your
brain to continue thinking when it cannot think anymore and needs rest?

and btw...SLEEP!! i know u wanna die defending the gal you love like
sorata,but dude, to die because of lack of sleep is just so uncool!

guess im concerned cuz i was like you once..since i couldnt find any meaning
in my life i juz hecked it, juz trying to do dangerous things n see how far
i can push it. took a lot of lessons to make me value life and enjoy it, and
now i know my life is worth living though i dont have anyone special n im
not sure if i'll find one..haha..

you're not afraid of dying, but please dont get tired of living... your life
is much more valuable than you think.

hang in there, k. hope this can encourage you cuz i dont wanna see my studio
mate so burdened. n btw...about crying...i think you've been crying all
along...people don't just cry with tears, u know. they cry with words too.
if it makes you feel better, go ahead. everyone (even manly contractor
types!) need a good cry sometimes -tears or no tears.

When you think of your past love, you may
view it as a failure. But when you find a new
love, you view the past as a teacher. In the
game of love, it doesn't really matter who won
or who lost. What is important is you know
when to hold on and when to let go! You
know you really love someone when you want
him or her to be happy, even if their
happiness means that you're not part of it.
Everything happens for the best.

If the person you love doesn't love you back,
don't be afraid to love someone else again,
for you'll never know unless you give it a try.
You'll never love a person you love unless
you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you
don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love.

Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the
hurting is still there to test you, it is to help
you grow. Don't find love, let love find you.
That's why it's called falling in love because
you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall.
You cannot finish a book without closing its
chapters. If you want to go on, then you have
to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or
won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture
in which we are always learning, discovering
and growing. The greatest irony of love is
letting go when you need to hold on and
holding on when you need to let go. We lose
someone we love only when we are destined
to find someone else who can love us even
more than we can love ourselves. On falling
out of love, take some time to heal and then
get back on the horse. But don't ever make
the same mistake of riding the same one that
threw you the first time.

To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk
dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must
be taken because the greatest hazard in life
is to risk nothing! To reach for another is to
risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to
expose true self; to love is to risk not to be
loved in return. How to define love: fall but do
not stumble, be constant but not too
persistent, share and never be unfair,
understand and try not to demand, hurt but
never keep the pain.

Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it
can carve wonderful images into the soul that
always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to
be the most wonderful feeling. It should
inspire you and give you joy and strength. But
sometimes the things that give you joy can
also hurt you in the end. Loving people
means giving them the freedom of who they
choose to be and where they choose to be.
For all the heartaches and the tears, for
gloomy days and fruitless years, you should
give thanks, for you know, that there were the
things that helped you grow.

Loving someone means giving her the
freedom to find his way, whether it leads
towards you or away from you. Love is a
painful risk to take but the risk must be taken
no matter how scary or painful, for only then
you'll experience the fullness of humanity and
that is love.

Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with
desire and tear you apart. Only love can make
you cry and only love knows why. There is a time in our
lives when we become afraid to fall in love
because every time we do, we get hurt, and
then I figured that's why it's called falling in
love.

p.s sorry for sticking my nose into your life...just get well soon k.

haha.........very long right...........i think i dun wanna die also will die reading so long...........ahah......okok.......no offense to my friend.........really appreciate she wrote this to me....of course i dun mind u reading......just dun go spreading ard can le.........well...........i will still be myself ba............although my heart alr dead anyway..........maybe there might be a time when i will see some light in life...............but............maybe i will leave this world be4 tt..............y i say tt??............maybe some physical symtoms is telling me tt ba............hahha............well..........maybe my time is really going to be up maybe not,....is there really ppl who die of sorrow and loneliness......maybe i will be first or one of them...........i dun have anything in this world tt i miss anyway..........maybe my family and memories and friends.............haha...........all i can do now is design and design till my time is up isnt it?...................die a sad man...........haha............cool sorrow story isnt it??............just not dramatic ba.........i dun really like dramatic anyway.............always wanted a simple simple normal life......or rather love life...........but since i am fated not to get it...............let just be it..................i just have to face the fact...............demoralised till die mentally then die physically??...........haha............who know...........nvr heard of it............try it also can prove sth be4 i go right?/............hahaha