Sudden posting...

wow its been ages tt i have been writing here.... well guess there wont be anyone reading this anymore..... which maybe is good since no point reading it. my life is full of shit.... no discipline.... just regret.... i really dun know wat i want........ can nvr concentrate.... maybe this is just destroying me.... wat is love.... wat is sex.... wat is friends.... wat is being together...... y am i always troubled by these........ am i nuts? am i despo? am i just a crazy freak?..... i dun know........ i just feel totally useless...... when tgt i cant stop fantasizing...... until i break the taboo...... i am just a useless peice of shit...... i dun know wat to say....... no energy to say..... maybe i really shd just die...... y am i living till so long.........LET ME DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!